The journey of a Christian life is not a perfect life. It is a life lived based on your willingness to follow God’s rules, and ways as opposed to living life on your own terms. It is not lived by perfect people. It is a broken life lived under an anchor, and a guide for the surrendered soul. It is a life where you choose to die daily, and lose yourself completely.
No, it is not a life that eludes sin but it is a life that understands that it doesn’t have to stay in sin after a fall. It is a life that accepts the incredible generosity of Jesus. It is not a life that sticks with Jesus in order to get the benefits that comes with knowing him, rather it is a life distinctly lived, willing to go all the way with him even to the point of suffering. It is choosing to rise above your sin and shame each time you fall and run to his throne for help. It is a life lived by being in love and in a personal relationship with Jesus.
We all strive for perfection whether we know it or not. When we stay away from our addictions, anger, irritability, and it’s likes, we tend to assume we are walking perfect before God. Yet, there is a God in heaven who says that all form of our righteousness are filthy rags before him. As scary and confusing as this might be on what exactly to do to walk perfect before him, the gentle command remains to abide in him. For if a branch abides with the vine and absorbs the nutrients the vine gives, it becomes difficult for it to be cut off.
The journey of a Christian on earth is a narrow one, and only a few find it. It is a life completely lived to give your all to God. It’s either all or nothing; a life where you lay your will, wants, and needs as a sacrifice trusting his will over yours. As difficult as the reality of this might be, it is a life where you let yourself go completely to Jesus.
Does this mean I don’t have a say in what happens to me? Does this mean l don’t get to choose what becomes of me? Does this mean my life is not my own anymore? What exactly does loosing myself mean? The simple yet brutal answer remains; your life was never yours in the first place. It was given to you as a gift, a great gift that is beyond your human understanding to manage or bring to its full use, potential and fulfillment. The quicker we understand this, the better and faster it becomes to let go of it to the one who gave it. The owner of this gift of life is Jesus, and he knows that no mortal can take charge of his life without his help.
It’s like comparing a piece of furniture from IKEA ( a popular furniture store in the USA) given as a gift to you during Christmas with just pieces, parts, and screws. All furniture bought from IKEA comes in protective packages and a full detailed manual on the set up to look just like what you desired as you put it into immediate use. Only in this case, there is no manual that depicts an example of how it should properly be put together to achieve it’s purpose. That is just how our lives are when we are born, pieces and screws without a manual. As we mature and grow older, we realise the need to be put together, and we ask questions like why am l here? What is my purpose? What is the goal?
Then as the humans we are, we try to piece it together and we start trying. Oh we start trying!! Logically, the right thing to do is to find the manufacturer or at least where the pieces came from to ask for a manual, a detailed instruction of how to put the pieces of our lives together. Sadly, we continue trying in our strength to make things right, and after trying for a while, our story becomes this is too hard, this is too tough, l hate this pieces ( translation – l hate my life), and sadly a large percentage of us quit it easily. We believe it’s just really easy to walk away.
As sad as this is, the manufacturer of life itself is just standing by us saying, whispering, and sometimes shouting that ” l am here”. I made these pieces, l know what it is intended for, l know what it’s purpose is, please just hand it over”. Then a few of us look at him like he clearly doesn’t know what he’s saying. We say things that reflect in our actions; this is my life, l am in control here, our will becomes very tough to let go. For the few who actually trust the manufacturer, it really doesn’t mean they don’t have questions as well or concerns or even doubts, they have just chosen to trust the manufacturer of life itself. That explains why our lives are results of the sum total of choices we make.
Even, l am no exception. I panic when l look at the pieces of my life, it’s sweeter to be in control, it’s interesting to piece life together, the pleasure it offers is intoxicating, and overall tempting. So many times, l have been tempted, and l have screamed at the manufacturer of my life to put me in charge of my own life. As soon as he lets me, it becomes very confusing again, and l am back to the point of not understanding a thing.
I am, however, thankful that my manufacturer is gentle, extremely patient, kind, gracious, and everything good l can think about and more. He is the embodiment and personification of grace. Daily, he beckons us to his presence, and calls my attention to how much he loves me, and us all. This is a journey, this gift of life is a journey, and it was definitely not intended to be perfect. More than anything, as l daily lose my will, myself to the manufacturer of life itself, he holds my hands, and the hands of those who trust him, he takes us all on the journey of life, to fulfill purpose, and to be in a close relationship with him.
I am not perfect neither do l strive towards perfection, l am not in control of my life, l refuse to have my will over his will, l choose him even when l fail and fall, daily trusting in him to make me be who he wants me to be in character and for the use of his glory.
We are all on this journey, and my question here is, do you know who your manufacturer is? And if you do, are you trusting him to lead you? Is it still your will or his? Is it still your life or are you daily laying down your life to him as he works his life through yours? Think hard, think fast? The manufacturer never intended your life to be this hard, he just wants you to hand life over to him. It’s a simple choice, don’t keep it complicated.
There is no peace the world can offer but there is unexplainable and unmatched peace in being a true lover of Jesus. The choice is yours; choose wisely.