The wisest man who walked this earth once said, “You’re tied down to the mundane; I’m in touch with what is beyond your horizons. You live in terms of what you can see and touch. I’m living on the other terms. I told you that you were missing God in all this. You’re at a dead end. If you won’t believe I am who l say I am, you’re at a dead end of sins. You’re missing God in your lives.” – John 8; 23-24
Please allow me to introduce my zodiac sign, unlike many who do not believe it, I clearly act out everything in the book of the Gemini zodiac facts. I like getting to the point, purpose, and reason behind everything without a waste of time. My go-to for every situation or circumstance l find myself has always been, what’s the point or purpose of this? I mean, what is actually the point in beating around the bush? My close friends and family know this about me. Some days I enjoy the drama of not knowing what step is next; I call it the thrill of the chase. At this time though, my hormones are popping, and just unsettled. Some other days, I am not in the mood, I just really want to get it over and done with. For some reason, my human mind is programmed to believe that I have to finish any season I’m in, as if I were in some sort of competition or race that requires urgency to take on the next baton. At this point, l suppose you have figured out that I need help with being patient, and l still do.
In my journey with God especially, I always want to get to the point, and the purpose of any test he puts me through, be it major life decisions, issues or any ongoing event in my life that has to be sorted out.
2016 was a year of loss, and birthing for me. Safe to say, the hardest year in my young life. I had quit my job at a time when I was in a final phase of an interview at a fast paced organization. I had thought to myself, I will get this job, get a better pay, benefits, amazing colleagues, and I would start to feel really good about myself. l thought to myself, my life would be easier.. l dreamt on, and on, and on..
Let me pause here, and ask a genuine question, why in God’s name do we think we would be much happier when we change jobs from our cruel bosses, or move to a new location, a new house, or even a new spouse? It never works that way. Happiness, and being joyful is a thing of your mind as well as a way to navigate life, you carry it everywhere you go. If you hate your life, and loathe yourself, a change of job, spouse or location will not fix you. Truly, it might help but usually that happiness is short lived. Joy radiates from your inner being, and not from your success.
Anyway, back to my story, someone who had 8 years in experience more than l did was given the job, and I was hurt to my bone marrow. I was very emotional, and I cried for days. My hope was shattered, and I truly felt it was the end. What would happen to me? How was l going to rise from this? Everything was against me and the odds were not in my favor. Well, following this, I applied to over 120 jobs in the span of 4 months, and I had over 30 job interviews. Every Thursday of the week became an official interview date, and it was usually followed with weeks of waiting and fasting. Six months after, I still had no job. Survival became scary. I felt so hurt, asked many questions which consisted of whys, I felt like a failure, and my confidence was destroyed. As far as I was concerned, God had betrayed my trust in him, which in all honesty was very weak. I did not realize my journey to getting a new job would involve me walking and beating around the bush. I lost total control of my life.
Disclaimer here is, God never takes us to the arrival while leaving us to escape the journey. Everything you need to survive at the arrival has to be taught on the journey. Taking it back to the first context above, let’s reason together. Could the above be the reason why God teaches us to fix our eyes on the things above and not below? Over and over again, he reminds us to fix our eyes on the things we can’t see now because,
- He is not controlled by time and events
- He existed before time, and before the world was made
Yes, he created a world where its inhabitants act, and are mostly controlled, and limited by the events of time and space, unfortunately and fortunately, he is not moved by time. He made time, time did not make him. The good news here is, he is always on time.
Regardless, we are passerby’s whose home is above, in a kingdom where time is timeless, and events are endless. We have to be prepared for that kingdom, and I believe God does his best to prepare us well not just to navigate through this world but also to live his kingdom while on earth. So when events happen, just say; God, I trust your timing. I know you know what is best for me, so please this time, help me to fix my eyes above and not below. This is not an easy thing to say or pray as well but it will keep you at peace.
Through this period of waiting, it was painful, I have to admit but now that I look back on it, I am grateful it prepared me for the next phase of life that I am living right now. It gave me a story to tell, a platform to share, and the patience to wait. Exactly six months after, ironically, my faith, and trust in God had now developed, and I stopped figuring out what would happen to me. As far as I knew, I was in good hands, and he was going to take care of me. At that point, my motto became: For me to live is Christ; to die is gain. He was my father, and he had it all under control. At this point, I felt God knew I was ready.
I got a call one day from a lady who I rarely spoke to and she told me;
Her: Hello Sis. I have a job for you. The job is yours if you want it
Me: I checked the caller id again. Really? Are you sure you have the right person? Oh so what do l do?
Her: Just send your resume. It is your job anyways
Me: what just happened?
I was dumbfounded for the rest of the night. I could not sleep, I was in shock and in awe of God, Really Jesus, really? I kept asking. I had forgotten then that when God shows up, he shows off. It was at this moment I realized that he could have given me the job all along but he needed to take me on a journey to work on my character, my attitude, to break down a lot of barriers, and walls I had built in me.
God took me on a journey, and I have to tell you, it was the most painful journey with the most amazing, and mind-blowing results. I am not there yet but I am not who l used to be. I found wholeness and discovered that contrary to my opinion, nothing could ever satisfy or fulfill me. My fulfillment was not in my job, my home, my spouse, my friends, my family or my finances. My fulfillment was only in him, and in only him could l be and, remain fully complete.
So you see, with God, it is never about the arrival, he could have sorted me out in a day or a week after I quit my old job but he needed me to be learn. Today, whatever you’re going through, hang on, take a deep breath and trust him again.
Let me leave you with this,
“The magic of walking with God is never in or about the arrival ”.